Love is..

Love..

It's a very little word with a very big meaning which is different from each other

When i was a child, love is like a fairytale. i thought i'll find my prince charming..he will propose me in a candle light dinner and he will beg me..we will get married in a beautiful garden full of flowers..

But then,voala..i've grown up and all that dream,fantasy, all that fairytale disappeared..

Life is hard and love is cruel..

Many times i was falling..many times i was disappointed..it hurts and i'm tired..

But that is love..

No matter how cruel it is..i can't life without love..love is like a marijuana for me,,i need it, i addicted to it..but on the other hand if i used it too much i'll lose my concentration in anything..i'm gonna lose control to my self..

No matter how many times i was falling, how many times it tears me apart..

i wanna falling in love again..it's a wonderful feeling, unstoppable heart beating, thinking of somebody anytime,anywhere..i enjoy my life when i am falling in love

And now, for you..i got that feeling,i don't wanna lose you..

i might not a beautiful woman, i'm even imperfect person..but you are the perfect one for me..

i might a selfish person, i even forcing Allah to keep you here with me..

i don't need any reason to say i like you..

And Love is fullfilling each other..

i wanna be like my friend Tiari and Irwansyah..the happy couple,congrats for your engagement! i'm happy for you both..i hope you guys get married ASAP! Amiien..

left to right : baginda,nina,menan,me,irwan,tiari,vpey,hera and icem

what i wore:

my mom's dress

unbranded retro clutch bag

forever21 belt

gaudi tight

marie claire flat shoes

Life is a rollercoaster,,

too many things i wanna talk about,,too many stories i wanna share with,,but it's too much,i even couldn't say a word..my life was jumping around with sadness and happiness..i've got a good news and a bad news..

1. finally i finished my research
2. my grandfather passed away(and now i really missed him badly)
3. i'm in love with you!!
   

i took these photo with my best friend ninit from strawberry giggles at taman menteng..ninit told me that i have a talent to be a photographer.hahaha she must be kidding lol..

keep it straight

i went to tamansafari puncak on saturday for the family gathering..and i couldn't hold on with the traffic jam it's almost took 5 hours from jakarta to puncak, for normal condition it's only 2 hours..oh god!

my dearest little sister camilla.. actually she's not little at all..lol

my lovely parents..mamah papah did u know how much i love you??
even though i always act impolite towards you, i always hiding my feelings to you
and i sometimes utter words that i'd regret to you
but deeply in my heart i know, the more their worries and cares about is me
mah,pah..please just take your mind off of me for awhile
i won't give up to make you proud of me..

The Answer

now i know what the answer is..everything must gone,,like the wind, it never comes the same place twice and like the sunset..it gone with the beautiful way, give a pleasant impression..that's why i prefer to see the sunset than the sunrise..because i never have a beautiful sunrise but i always should be ready to give beautiful sunset even though my hearth was breaking..

sources pictures

Letter to you :)

that night seems i got a heart attack..my hearth beating so fast :)

this flower bought by my friends (galuh,vpey and wiwid) thank's a lot my dearest friends

well, i don't know how to write this feeling..am i a drama queen??i felt so sad..anything happen in my life just the sadness..no i don't mean all of my life but many things..my study and my love life..about my study, i know that's all my fault i was so irresponsible and too many time i wasted..and now all i can do is just saying sorry to my parents because i haven't graduated yet..
and about my love life it's the saddest one..these day i realize that i'm not already yet to falling in love again,,there is something hurting me a lot..something traumatic..i'm afraid if i love someone he won't love me back..or he just playing the game with my hearth..

"for someone..i write this letter to you..will you see my blog and read this letter special to you..first time, when my friend talk about you and she said she will introduce us, i'm not interested because i'm afraid that we will disappointing each other..but when we met there's something surprisingly..i got a crush on you..i like you..i like the way you talk..i like the way you walk..i like the way you see me..and i feel so comfort beside you..but are you really the one i've been searching for??or am i really the one you've been searching for??are you 'the right' man to me??or am i 'the right' one to you??if i may ask to Allah,,i wanna ask to have you as 'the right one' for me..because to be honest i really like you.."

nitya giveaway

i'm joining my friends ninit giveaway,,she celebrating her 2nd anniversary with her boyfriend,,
it's such a wonderful having a relationship with your boyfriend more than 1 years,,i want too,,i wish i could,,hehehe,,well anyway congrats nit,,i'm happy for you too,,(and i want that necklace nit!!!)

the forever 21 eiffel tower form necklace

surprise!!!

yup i've got a surprise from my lovely friends,,vpey,opung,nina,ipul,rila and badri,,i've never expected to get this surprise from them,,i thought they were so busy these day because of their research and seminar..but surprisingly they made a little surprise for me, although it was so embarrassing a lot because they made me looked like squirrel and i had to keep walking on the street from the cafe to my dorm-house with that crazy make up,,such a wicked!!but somehow,,thanks a lot my dears,,i love you all,,

the gift,,that black wallet from unkle,it's local brand from bandung


vpey,nina and me @burger and grill bintaro
opung,,

i'm searching for photos of badri and ipul,,but i don't have their latest photos??oh so sad,,

22nd life story

on my birthday, i said to my self :
"just feel happy with my life"
what ever will come just think positively,,i don't wanna be a grumbler, i don't wanna be a mushy, i have to be stronger, i have to be an understanding friend, i have to be daughter to be proud of
no more egoistic, no more anger
i will be smiling mitha, forgiving mitha,,
i will be mature as Mitha,,

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Repetition

Allah Almighty always has 'the secret' way,,as a human being we just have to believe that 'the secret' way is the best for us,,even if it's unpredictable and hard to do,,there's a lot of things i dream about but it's seems hard to get. my seminar has been delayed again, how could it comes at the crucial time??just 15 minutes before the seminar, my lecturer called me and told me that he couldn't come because he got sick,,oh god i just can take a deep breath and said to my self "mitha,,it happened again,,the repetition". everybody told me to be stronger and didn't give up,,i will and i know i have to but i just keep thinking is there any sin i do that couldn't be excused??..i'm so sorry Allah Almighty,i'm begging you..i'll try to be more obedient..please give me the easier way ..please God..

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Happy Things

there's a lot of things i wanna share,,so many things i skip these day because my presentation was failed and i have to repeat it,,but now i don't wanna talk about my sadness i feel so dramatic if i think about that so just let me think about my happy things,,I've got a scholarship and i bought somethings that i always wanted,,finally i got that in my closet,,yipie!!here there are,,

i'll call my watch Jama

lack quality of my photoshoot, it's taken from my cellphone,,i forgot to brought my digi (my digital camera)

fur cardigan Gaudi
studded tank top Gaudi
Logo jeans
Jacque Martin watch

and i went to puncak with my family,it's family gathering. it's my unique family,we usually doing crazy things and laugh load as you can see on my photo shoot here

me and my sleepy nephew aira,she so cute.

me,my cousin mas dody and her daughter atillah
my mom, my nephew aira, my sister camilla and me
mas dody, his wife kak putri and his daughter atillah

my cousin kak monic and my sister camilla

and this is the crazy part of my Family
The games,,
1. 'Joget Balon'

2. 'Pancing krupuk'

3. 'blind make up" this is the craziest games i've ever see,,
the nominees are,,(left to right : mas bayu, mas egi, mas agus, bang ami and mas rendi)

the view,,i rather love the mountains than the sea,,the weather,the view so quiet and pleasant. i even done my presentation slide here,,it makes me so relax